Thursday, September 30, 2010

Different World

should people need to be in the same ground, at the same level, on the same time to make the relationship work? this made me stayed awake at night for quite sometime now.

this was never an issue 14 years ago. we were like a child then. so young, so free, so in love. and as much as i would want those memories back in my arms again, i cant. things are so different now. what hurts the most is that i just woke up one day asking myself what happened to us.  i cant even remember why the feelings suddenly fall apart. i just unconsciously noticed that we were drifting apart...

i feel like i am holding two different weights in my hands - the good old memories that we've had against the present. i cannot believe that i came to a point that i will ask myself, do i still want this?

ive been trying to believe that we still connect with each other...

i guess only people who are close to me knows so much about me. i have always wanted to live in simplicity. apart from the busy, hectic and demanding corporate world i am into right now, i am longing for something simple... without hang - ups...

so sad, and it's hurting me :-(


Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Simple Life


  i think deep. i worry life too much. i measure happiness. i doubt sincerity. i compare life. i worry for people might perceive me bitter. 
i know i am strong in so many ways. pero pag usapang puso na, here am i, can't hardly admit that i am weak. i pretended to be okay for so many weeks now. admitting that there is something wrong gave me a fright.

life is simple. and this is what i am looking for...

Thursday, September 16, 2010


 Palagay ko nga.

 Ewan ko lang.
Dahil ba Busy?
 Siguro nga.

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Last Night

Kagabi. Samut-saring emosyon

* wants to spend more time with my kids
* wishing so hard to be the main character of every fairy tale who always had a happy ending *sniff*
* wants to own a time machine
* emoting with "Chasing Pavements" song
* cried so hard
* dying to know the meaning of closing the blinds (we don't have one)
* texted closest friends
* texted long time xxxxxx